my wedding invitation~

Message: HAHAHAHA.. IT'S PRETTY FUNNY
THAT YOU
OPENED this
because in the next seven days you
will:


* have someone fall in love with you
* find money you've been missing
* your luck will change for the better
in all areas... love, happiness, job,
money,
BUT...first you will have to repost
this with 1 of these titles:

"I'm gay"
"who you..Never..."
"I GOT ARRESTED AGAIN"
"Baby I want you back, im sorry"
"Just to settle all the rumors... yes
i did"
"My wedding invitation"
"I'm getting married!"
"I got the job!.. I'm moving to
Canada!"
"I miss him"
"I guess it was never meant to be"
"I got the scholarship!...I'm going to
Seattle"
"I'M GOING TO TRANSFER TO AUSTRALIA"

BEWARE IF U DON'T REPOST THIS U WILL
HAVE BAD LUCK FOR 2yrs

sleepless nights...

when I say your name... my heart skips a beat
will you still leave?
when I am with you..my path blossoms...
will you come to me?
memories are just a few..
but the heart seeks for more...
like shattered glass i fall into the ground...
where are you at this moment?
I forgot my language, i forgot my words,
silent as the sky i have become...
like a child who reaches out to the fire even if it hurts...
I keep reaching for you in the darkness...
I danced to a different tune.. yet hear a different song..
is my body and soul different?
Is this it? like a bolt to my mind...
this won't last, will it?
will you say that you dont remember?
or will you say that it isn't true?
what will you say?
will you say soul mate or will you say passing by?
what will your answer be?
the glistening sun gives way to the blue moon..
why then the sorrow?
the blossom fades.. bringing tears to the eyes...
what will happen...can you say?

I fucking Hate religion!

this stupid religion thing is so full of shit. Why cant everyone just accept that people think differently and shut the fuck up! why do u have to go around imposing your views on ppl... wht benefit does it do you to go around and tell everyone ur god is no good... if u wanna go to heaven... belive in my god... fuck u... i don wanna go to heaven... i'm good with hell... no objections! fuck off! how can u sit here n say DNA is bullshit coz god created it... doesnt that make ya'll medival!? this is so stupid! and i pisses me off...

crap....HOW TO KISS DURING A MOVIE[cute]

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repo st this with the title " HOW TO
KISS DURING A MOVIE[cute] " to throw
people off.... within 2 minutes. If
you do, your wish will come true. If
you don't, it will become the opposite

Did you know? before you go to sleep
at night there is one person thinking
of you. They want you they want to
kiss you, They want to be with you!

baby names?!

Baby Names
Message: : THIS IS WEIRD……..IT REALLY
HAPPENED! ! !!!!!

Say your lovers name seven times

Now close your eyes and make a wish
about them.

Decid e what’s more important, love, or
10 million dollars.

No w make one last wish, the love, or
the money.

Repo st this in 70 seconds with the
subject “Baby Names
Message: : THIS IS WEIRD……..IT REALLY
HAPPENED! ! !!!!!

Say your lovers name seven times

Now close your eyes and make a wish
about them.

Decid e what’s more important, love, or
10 million dollars.

No w make one last wish, the love, or
the money.

Repo st this in 70 seconds with the
subject “baby names” and you’ll get an
unexpected talk from your
lover…DON’T screw this up you’ll
never see them again!!!!!!

my kissing spot is on the kitchen table! how kinky!

MY KiSSiNG SPOT iS ........!
Libra : Under a tree.
Sagittarius : In the bathroom.
Taurus: On the trampoline.
Capri corn : In the hot tub.
Aquarius : In The Elevator.
Aries : In a pool!
Pisces : On The Kitchen Table.
Gemini : Under the stars.
Virgo : In a car.
Leo : On the beach.
Scorpio : Everywhere.
Cance r : In the rain.

Post as "My Kissing Spot Is ____ "

Repost This In.....

1 minute - You Will Be Getting A Kiss
Tomorrow.

2 minutes - You Won't Get Kissed For 5
years.
Back<>

here's to the jiwang moments in life!

I'm waiting... with love
All i hear is your voice in the wind..
i learned music with your laughter
your paths in life thought me mine..
i fell into the ocean of love
and remained afloat when i hit the shores
you moved me when you touched me
in your serenity...baby.. i am lost..

I'm waiting... with love
All i hear is your voice in the wind..
you moved me when you touched me
in your serenity...baby.. i am lost..

when i heard all the fairy tales..
i never believed in them... somehow..
but i knew thy were true when i laid my eyes upon you
and i never forgot how you made me believe.
the sun rises to shine at you...
and it sets in anticipation for tomorrow..

I'm waiting... with love
All i hear is your voice in the wind..
you moved me when you touched me
in your serenity...baby.. i am lost..

The day i met you.. sings the memory in me..
like whirlpool swirling in my heart..
everything i spoke about you..
shines in me every moment...every breath..
you made me whisper to the sea.. you made my time stop..
you made me smile while i walk in the rain...
you made me crave for the warm sun on my skin..

I'm waiting... with love
All i hear is your voice in the wind..
i learned music with your laughter
your paths in life thought me mine..
i fell into the ocean of love
and remained afloat when i hit the shores
you moved me when you touched me
in your serenity...baby.. i am lost..

you moved me when you touched me
in your serenity...baby.. i am lost..

Bullshiiiiit!

He's so full of crap... i cant believe him.... i called him after he mess... was tht wrong? he tells me not to call... so i ws like ok thn... bye... now he wont reply... but he will talk on the phone with morni all... WTF? its not like he has to pay for it... so so anoying! nvr gonna speak to him again! mark my words! grrrrrr
so malas today.... its 1231... i have to go to the bank and all... but damn lazy wei... actually... can go makan buritto! k..k..
bye bye! la vicz... here i come!

crap crap crap

there i go again.. skipped class for the first time this sem... yay to 9/11... AAS... i just didnt have the mood to go no where... i walked out...

class break... bus 21... gonna smoke for a bit... brb!!

k... so while the lecturers reads jokes about the NFL, and year 2029... i shall try to not lauh n type... not working...brb... did i mention tht my lecturer is one of those ppl who writes capitals.. bleh... shit!! didnt pause my crossword! argh!

class habis d... brb...

k... this blog is being written in the span of 2 hours... n its less thn 1/2 a page! hahaha...

today morning.. i woke up crying...n sweating... seriously... n i had no idea why... i remember san francisco.... n sri... going to his house in san francisco apparently... n i cried... alot.... so much so tht i had tears all over my pillow whn i woke up... kaw kaw rite!? i was reading the dream interpretation... it said tht crying:
signifies a release of negative emotions that is more likely caused by some waking situation rather than the events of the dream itself. Your dream is a way to regain some emotional balance and a way to safely let out your fears and frustrations. In our daily lives, we tend to ignore, deny, or repress our feelings. But in our dream state, our defense mechanisms are no longer on guard and thus allow for the release of such emotions.

oh well... i didnt actually think i was tht sad tht i had to cry about it... no..not her... i probably am a little sad about not having friends like i had back home... and thn again... i nvr did... have a lot... frens i mean... so... i think this is just some sort of pms... mood swings.... i think tilia kinda realises tht i'm going very silent these past few days... i feel bad... i just don feel like mixing around... especially with love in the air.... not my scene....
k...bio lab to finish... bio notes to read... the table lamp is too bright.... signs i should remove my contact lenses.... u knoe whts funny? nvr mind... ppl do read these things.... i'll save myself from any conflicts.... anyways...............
i was looking at the theater major thinggy... i don wanna major in tht... but wht if i take a class or two... wouldnt hurt next sem.... hmmmm we'll see... according my plan... i will only graduate in may 09 even whn i take 6 courses a sem... so if i take some classes at de anza... like all those failed classes.... i should be ok... i think... n if my gpa goes up high enough... i can take 7 classes instead of 6... tht way i can walk in dec 08... thts really fast... i think! argh!!! wasted too much time! listening to some farny ass song form the 60's... damn gay rite... which reminds me... why bengay....can't thy find some other name? seriously?... anyways... i've been thinking alot about smoking... it probably is the reason i feel low.... so... if i quit... will tht help? maybe not smoke during the day... only nights... hmmmm.... though... k..i know i need one in the morning... so.. thts one.... thn... after food...no! maybe if i had one afer every meal only.... n after tht only at nights with beer... hows tht? tht way i can make sure i have breakfast... how about btw breaks in class? this way i need a tonne of gum and chips or food to eat during break... grrrr....suckyness... k... i give my self one week... lets see how far i can go... nights after 10 doesnt matter.... during the day.... one in the morning with breakfast.... afternoon with lunch... ad evening.... before class... coz class all finish 9 ni...so... screw dinner... sounds good? i think so... i can save money also! well thn! hts works tht... now... must go try to see wht to do for WST... bleh!!

buh bye!

99 ways to kiss

You opened this because it
said...

99 Ways 2 Kiss!!
but would you have opened it if it said
"I love God no matter what?"
repost this in 7 mins. as "99 Ways 2
Kiss!!!"
If You Truly Love GOD.
A miracle Will Happen Tonight.

P.S. Don't ignore
God is always watching

SeeeeXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXy!

Roses are red
Lemons are sour
Open ur legs and give me an hour

Kissing Is A Habit
Fuuckking Is A Game
Guys Get All The Pleasure
Girls Get All The Pain
10 Minutes Of Pleasure
9 Months Of Pain
3 Days In The Hospital
A Baby Without A Name
The Father Is A Bast4rd
The Mother Is A Wh0re
This Woulda Never Happend If The Rubber
Hadn't Tore!!

Sex is like math
You subtract the clothes
Add the bed
Divide the legs
And Pray to god
You dont multiply

Roses are red
Grass is green
Open your legs
And I'll fill you with cream

Sex is good
Sex is fine
Doggy Style & 69
Just for fun
Or gettin paid
Everyone likes gettin laid


roses are nice
violets are fine.
ill be the six
if you be the nine.

sexxx is evil
sexxxx is a sin
sins are forgiven
so stick it in

found it!!! my butterfly!!!

Created this like a year ago.... finally found the file... thought i lost it forever... writting takes up too much energy... whn i wrote it... it didnt have tht much meaning... it was just saying it VERY expressively... now...hmmm... its pretty much the same thing!

The sun shines thru the skies

Coloring the wings of the butterflies

The love and joy it brings

Flutters deep within our heart

Love is like a butterfly
you think you've caught it
But then it flies

The butterfly whisks away

Leaving our love to fade away

I look up as a tear rolls slowly down my cheek
thinking about the happier times
and wonder if I'll ever feel that way again
you look at me with those eyes I know so well

Those eyes in which I saw myself

Now I wonder

Was seeing me through your eyes
better than an eternity alone

The love and joy I used to know
the laughs we shared
the love we made

I thought our love was true.

But now I see it wasn't

Love is like a butterfly
you think you've caught it
But then it flies

The butterfly whisks away

Leaving our love to fade away

Someday you'll cry for me,

Like I cried for you.

Someday you'll need me,

The way I needed you.

Someday you'll miss me,

Like I missed you.

Someday you'll love me,

And I’ll be there to love you

I don’t want to say its over
I don’t want to leave you

But somehow I wish I didn’t have to

Love is like a butterfly
you think you've caught it
But then it flies

The butterfly whisks away

Leaving our love to fade away

You look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
and wipe the tears from my cheek

Saying…If nothing ever changed, there'd be no butterflies.

OUCH!

ok... so...he jumped onto the bed... n things went smoothly..."IN"...
i thought he would leave it at that...never even thinking of dating... just a fuckin hookup!
rite? wrong!!! it was more thn tht... so it seems... he came back the next day...n after tht... n after... its weird! n now... to even think tht i wont be able to see him even once after i leave... hurts like a bitch! fuckin HURTS! why? i mean... f'real... we both knew it was coming! i guess he has more important things on his mind... i mean... he is the one leaving for hella days... i on the other hand...(giving myself reasons to get butt hurt!).... will be returning to this campus... n walk on the same path we both did... n think about all those shit... n cry... y? coz... he isnt an asshole... i've always managed to meet assholes... but this one isnt... he didnt deny tht we did hookup... which is effin weird for a guy... but he's just being nice... GOD..... it even hurts to say tht! why the FUCK m i so sprung!?!?!?!? this isnt ryte! i changed... i gave up on feelings... i promised myself tht i wont allow my retarded feelings to get stabbed again.... n here i stand... taking chances... letting go... believing in crap like love!... i agree this isnt love... its just... a safe zone... attention seeking n giving... but why does it feel like there can be more if only time would turn around... i have another four days to learn how to love n forget this one person... IMPOSSIBLE!
my action plan is... to not be emotional about the situation... at least not in front of him... when a day passes by with him not calling or texting..... i become obsessed!!! u know wht... come to think of it... i have a super magical power... i can turn the smallest desire to become the world's greatest obsession!!!! i look at his text messages more often thn not... i stare at his number wishing he would call... but ego is good... especially now!
its perfect... anything to keep my fingers from touching the phone!
aghhh...
if this was only about sex.... it would have been easier thn ABC...
but no.... we had to have good communication skills!

a note to GOD....u are going to be haring a lot of whining whn i get up there.... u wait!!!!

`````~~~~~~DREAMIN~~~~~~`````````

hmmmmmmm...(with dreamy eyes n a huge smile across my face!)
Temptation was inviting, but no words needed to be said,
So, nervously I sat down again, on the edge of the warm, familiar bed.
Oh, I knew well all the pleasures from so many times before,
Temptation had seduced me and I trembled while I sighed.
As, at last, I slowly gave in, I knew it was being shallow
To succumb to the wonderful pleasures...
Touching me softly,
With his beautiful lips
Touching me gently,
his hands on my hips,
Touching me,
Like an ocean's wave you hold on to me,
Crashing against the gray stone rocks -
So fierce intense each step by step.
The ocean in the flicker of an eye.
Leading from high down to the beach,
So narrow steep naive and dark,
And yet so pure like the fine sands,
Which our feet, together, have still to touch.
Hold closer, closer, capture it all -
Seashell treasures keep memories;
Waves of the night lost in the sea.
Deep true endless romances of the waters,
Are cherished lovingly on shore.
Graceful perfection, sea breeze air
Silent kisses, stars keep smiles.
Beneath the play shelter,
Hidden from all, nerves swim, adrenalin
So gentle intense like the deep mystery.
he takes my body on a journey that never ends,
It always seems to just begin,
Like the ocean so wide and powerful with its waves rolling in and crashing against
The rocks
With the same force as my admiration towards the man I want to get to know
I want to know and feel his strength, and feel the power of his touch, crashing against
My soul
I want to feel his passions his desires and the dreams he has
Like the waters that go on
Forever and ever
I want to feel his tender touch caressing every inch of my body like the kiss of the sun over the ocean horizon,
Faithfully each morning
I want him to know that with each and ever word spoken is like a ripple that spreads throughout the deepest waters in My heart
For the day is coming closer and the nights are getting longer in the desire
To be near you
I dream of that moment when the waters of the ocean and the rocks of the cliffs finally meet
In a storm of passion,
His every touch will be like a soft caress to the rocks of the cliffs below
With each encounter will be like the waters stirring under the ocean so deep
With each kiss will be like a storm building furiously down beneath the earth
And deep down beneath my soul
And when the time comes for him to take my heart my soul and my body and make love to me
It will be like a wild storm out of control
With each touch, caress, and kiss he bestows upon me, will be like
Giant waves
Crashing vigorously with so much power and so much strength against the rocks,
Just like nature intended it to be
And just like I want him to completely take me
Then like the calm after the storm
I want to lie in his arms and hear
The pounding of his heart
Like the ocean waves
Calming and soothing
To my
Soul

Pork Stir Fry

finals!!! this has been the worst week ever!! i have a GRAMMER quiz today..(don ask me y!) a banquete to attend tomorrow.. one on saturday... thn.. next tuesday is the worst day of my life... i have to finish making a slide show for CVB's banquete.. turn in two econs puzzle due at 130pm.. a speech to atend at 445pm.. the baquete is at 5.. i have a finals review class at 6pm... i have no fuckin clue how to get thru tht day... haiyh! and i have some sort of date thinggy tonite... i dunno wht to think.. is he just bein frenly.. or he are exterior motives like tilia suspects? i dont know... anyways... i cooked yesterday.. had pork meat in the fridge.. so.. cooked it... coz i am going to move out. it turned out well.. excluding the part tilia dropped the whole tofu on the floor... hehehe!
this is how i roll.. or cook.. which ever...
1 1/2 lbs pork meat.. cut into cubes
tofu.. soft..bout 1 packet should be good...
{1/2 onion,7-8 cloves of garlic, ginger(peeled)}-->..chopped finely!
1 bundle/ 4 shoots spring onions
as desidered...coriander leaves
1 tablespoon (each)..soy sauce..
{thin and the thick dark soy sauce will be a good combo}
2 tablespoon oyester sauce
1 teaspoon sesame oil
1 teaspoon cooking oil(olive/corn/vege)
{you can opt to no using cooking oil at all)
chillie.. if desired...
1 1/2 cup chicken broth
cornstarch... dissolve about 1 teaspoon corn flour in cold water
salt n sugar for taste

the recipe is pretty self explanatory... heat the cooking oil.. add the onion,garlic,ginger, spring onions, coriander leaves and chillie.
after you get the aroma in the air... add the pork...
when the meat is cooked.. add the broth, soy sauce, sesame oil, oyester sauce.
thn add the cornstarch...
finally add the tofu.. if u dont mind having your tofu look like congee.. go ahead and mix em with the meat.. stir it... but if u want tofu to look like tofu... cut em into small cubes and drop em in gently... mix it gently... and take it out shortly after.
tada!!!!
done!
it taste good.. i had loads of chilie in it... spicey!!! hehehe..

Butter Prawns!

the title was just a line to "distract" everyone...wakakak
anyways...
seeing how my bloggin days are no'in but an empty page of blurb.. i decided to write something on tht empty page.. its still just crappy blurbs...
and so it begins...
got up at freakin 630 in morning... to go make coffee for ppl who dont know how to sleep in on a peaceful friday morning. then my first customer walks into the store and asks me... "mocha frap plz? non-fat and a extra shot of espresso.." i nod my head to her cravings n make it for her.. in the process she questions about why we brew starbucks n dont have frap menu.. i was like.. effin whitewash.. it says proudly brew starbucks.. not starbucks! grrr.. why don ppl get signs? if it says subway thn it is subs u get... but if it says brew starbucks... its just the coffee bean.. not the whole jingbang! and t'was effin cold outside... like 10deg!!/50F.. she wants a frap?! madness.. (NO!! THIS...IS....SPARTA!!!... wakaka... jsut wanted to say it so bad!)
thn.. i continue bumming around behind the machine.. n there walks in a girl.. i think she's indian... i dont know... her accent was saying otherwise.. she stands infront the couter, looks at me... n talks on the phone.. for nearly 15mins! whteva dude! thn she asks.. can i have a cinnamon roll... my mind got jammed.. there were nearlly 50 types of pastries out there.. which was the cinnamon roll? i aint born in this country... i take one.. she says no... i take another...she says no with a face.. finally my manager walks... after seeing me suffer.. she points out.. i take the F***in bun n give it to her... i asked to confirm,... is this the cinnamon bun... dear god! should have seen the look on tht bitch's face! constipated! i told her straight up... i'm not born here... i'm a FOB... i dont know... i didnt mean to offend you... she became a monstrous creature...n said... can i have my receipt please... do thy teach you tht in your country?! I nearly socked her face... putting my job on the line i said... yeah..thy do.. thy also teach us not to talk in the phone while ordering something. she blew! n tht was the end of my shift for tht morning... proud to say.. my manager was not upset... she didnt get rid off me..so.. hell yeah!
thn i went to study with a fren in the union... there...some fobby ass indian dude.. comes up to me and asks for help saying tht he needs to call someone! fine.. indian oni mah... help ler... motherf**** talked on the phone for like foreva! happily deletes the number... n says thank! stupid! fella talking tata patti story all! aiyo! if i see him again... i will chase him with my parang.. whn i get one!
talking about getting something soon.. i have a long long list of getting something soon...
1-tattoo...BUTTERFLY!
2-plane ticket to Kay-L..yes..plz do not inform my frens or my dance teacher.. or tht mridangam player... he doesnt need to know! playa!!!!!!!
3-a top to go out tonite..
4-yvette's accounting text book to do homework..
5-mitch's skateboard
6-a room.. if tht doesnt work out.. thn a tomb!
i walked from 4th street to 11th looking for apartments to move in next sem! dear god was it hard!
i was checking online how my spending habits are going... it was good... till my dad mysteriously decided to donate 400 bucks... all gone! i swear... i nvr went shopping... no clothes... food.. n food.. n food... not to forget.. a SMALL amount of alcohol... well.. smalllah! ok lah! not too much!
i'm such a pro at seafood... while preparing the crab tht were still alive( tht was a historic event! we bought 'em live... so wanted to have it cooked fresh... so we kept thm in the bath tub! hahahah.. the whole night we were fighting with the crabs! haiiiyah! hehehe... thn we transfered thm to the kitchen sink.. got our other roommates mad... n cooked it in the morning...so anyways) i nearly chop my finger off... my pinky finger summore...PAVUMS! thn it was the lala tht i was trying to crack (thy were dead) n i poked my palm... PAIN!... thn jsut now... the prawn's head poked my thumb! eeee! respect my mom for makin seafood! god knows how she does it without hurting herself!
i was wondeirng... why refer to the word jerks as a male and not female too? whn a girl behaves like a jerk... we call her bitch.. or something in tht sense.. is the word jerk meant for guys alone? thn how do you call a lady being "jerk-ish" without degrading her to a form of dog?
my biggest question right now is... should i stay on campus or off.. if i stay on..it'll be fun.. safe.. restricted.. but i can get involved in leadership thiggies..
off campus means... nvr restricted.. i can have all the liquor i want in the kitchen n not in my room...freedom.. no quiet hours.. but i'll be bored as hell.. wont meet as much ppl as i do now...not tht i'm a social butterfly or anything...
my roommate is in the bathroom... n he's takin hella days to get out! dude! hurry up already! the recipe of the day is... something to do with prawns... got to finish 'em b4 they spoil...butter prawns...
sadly it didnt turn out! ughh! well.. it did... but not like my moms... this is wht i added...

PRAWN!!! 1lb (coated)
Oil for deep frying... so make sure there's alot!
Butter(margerine is tastier.. but not healthier) 3-4tblspoon
Chillie (preferred = bird's eye) 6-7
Curry leaves ( dont event try butter prawns without curry leaves!or at least don expect excellent taste!) 3-4 sprigs(Leaves only)

Garlic 3 cloves(crushed)

salt+sugar

additional/optional

style 1: egg white, onion

style 2: rice wine, soy sauce, grated coconut

first of all.. clean the gawddamn prawns.. thy stink otherwise. add salt if u cant take the smell. coat it with flour (1tblspn cornflour + 2 tblspn rice/all purpose flour + COLD water) and deep fry in hot oil (careful). you can choose not to coat it and just fry the prawns in oil. My mom fried the prawns in the butter for the fragrance n taste. i opt to oil coz its cheaper n i needed butter for making breakfast. (Sowwie ma)

Style 1:

thn in a separate pan/wok/satti/jatti/whteva u use, melt the butter (unless u used butter earlier..use the same pan/...etc). add curry leaves and garlic and chillie.

once the aroma is in the air so to speak add the fried prawns. after bout 2 mins add the grated coconut, rice wine, soy sauce and salt n sugar for taste.

cook high. once it looks "Mmmmm....Scrumptious!!" take it out n thinne man!

listening to 4 non blondes now.. "I said hey.. whts goin on?!?!"

Style 2:

this style, its preferred to have the prawns coated. thy look crispy! after u fry the prawns, fry the curry leaves, onion egg white in butter n add the prawns if you took 'em out or fried it in oil.

when it looks ready after bout 2-3 mins.. serve immediately!

PS: if u using alot of butter... try using less salt or none.. i dont wanna be blamed!

this is wht it looks like..

ok..now... to eat wht i cooked...

n yes.. i declare it spicy!! chilly baby!!!

hehehehe...

hopefully the next time i blog.. i cook something other thn indo... payce!!

Choices made...decisions called

He walked in looking different. always had a hunch he was special. that night, he proved me right.
ok.. so i think looks matter. who doesnt? i'm sure he does! thts y he isnt turning even an inch towards me. but when someone says he's a nice guy.. u would nod your head. but i mean it when i say nice guy. they way he talks, how he refuses to hurt another's feeling, knows when to play and when to not, has a control over himself but doesnt try tht with others. what more could you want..? oh ya.. i remembered... a return in feelings! thts rite! shit talker's dont get nice guys. they get effin a-holes who make booty calls especially ones with small problems! ugh!
its mysterious.. in some ways... never thought the feelings still lingered in me... its amazing.. its probably the new looks.. but the smile was always there... and the squeeky eyes.. and the cool nodding of the head. the still figure and the blur look upon his face when u ask him a random question... digging deep is so exciting but knwing u arent going to get anything out of it is depressing!

sorry

theba is hella mad.. he hasnt said anything for 2 days now!!!
i didnt mean it... grr... i'm sowwie...
today was such a hectic day! god! i lost my whole freakin blogger blog. GOd knows where it went. woke up with a massive headache.. skipped class n work. went out to finish the projec... those people protesting against the fee increase were around. I dont get them. what do thy want? first.. the educators demanded an increase in pay. motion passed! then they wanted more funds for financial aid. i think tht got passes too. not too sure.not like it matters to me. i freakin pay $336 per unit! you think it hurts me if the fee increases 10%?! bloody hell half the americans live on loans and financial aid. wht else do they want?
anyways... some bunh of dude were walking past by and were talking shit in hindi! grr... i knew thy were saying something... but i cant speak hindi! is it wrong!?! god! i'm sorry i'm not born in india and taught hindi my whole life!!! i learn BM.. its malaysian! neahhh!
its like a sin to be an indian not born in india. "you're indian no?!" like duh i am! i am brown arent i? i ust dont speak multiple dialects. i speak Tamil! English! Malay! Cantonese! languages.
today is so full of rage!
n i'm hella tired... had dance practice... nimbooda!!! the tamil song is damn on! hehehe
i love being tired bcoz of dance... actually miss it.. hate the part where we smell like feet after dancing one whole hour though! yuck! anyways!
Payce out!