Monday, February 11, 2008

I feel 15!! again!

ok! this is so effin stupid! he doesnt even know i exist! i know for certain he doesnt care! so why do i keep dreaming about him!? it doesnt make sense! i dont like him! i dont KNOW him! i dont want to know him...
actually i do. BUT! only to figure out why i keep dreaming about him.
this is how the dream goes...
i'm walking... by a huge arse river or lake i dont know... its cold. very!cold... thn i see a purplish rock. i pick it up and throw it... only realising that i really liked it and want it back. as tho the whole world fell apart, i start crying. for no apparent reason. i tumble on the ground, holding my face crying.
thn i look up n i see HIM! i barely know him. but there he is. in front of me. no expression. takes my hands and picks me up.
so far it sounds sweet rite? wrong! VERY wrong!
he carries me.. and into the deep water we go!! i dont struggle i dont move.. all i do is look at him. i turn one last time towards the sun and down we go. after tht all i see is water and his eyes.. smiling at me, saying tht everything is going to be alrite.
then i wake up gasping for air! its not a nightmare. i feel happy. but i get up like i was underwater.
this is pure bullshit!! argh! nothing makes sense!
i dont know this guy. fine i know his last name. i know where he's from. i know he's on my friends list. but tht is it!! nothing else! to make things worse.. i have had this dream for the past three(3) days! why??? any one care to translate?!?!?!?!
so far these were the suggestions...
for the lake - To see a lake in your dream, signifies your emotional state of mind. If the lake is clear and calm, then it symbolize your inner peace. If the lake is disturbed, then you may be going through some emotional turmoil.
for the pebble -
To dream that you are throwing pebbles, suggests that you are feeling hurt be the little things that may seem insignificant. It is symbolic of criticism and gossip.
for the guy! - as a stranger =
To see a stranger in your dream, symbolizes the part of yourself that is repressed and hidden.
as a friend =
To see your friends in your dream, signifies aspects of your personality that you have rejected, but are ready to integrate these rejected part of yourself. Additionally, this symbol foretells of happy tidings from them and the arrival of good news.
for being sad -
To dream that you are sad, signifies a positive turn of events. It is generally a good dream foretelling good things are about to happen in your near future.
for being underwater -

To dream that you are underwater, suggests that you are feeling overcome with emotions and are in need of greater control in your life. You may be in over your head regarding some situation.

To dream that you are breathing underwater, represents a retreat back into the womb. You want to return to a state where you were dependent and free from responsibilities. Perhaps you are feeling helpless, unable to fulfill your own needs and caring for yourself. Alternatively, you may be submerged in your emotions
Things dont match! i'm good, in control, n thn i'm not! WTF?! argh! should i ask him? first of all, why him?! i barely know how to say him name! on the good side, at least its someone i sort know.
i need to sleep! but i'm scared!

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